Happy birthday to ME!

Posted on | December 7, 2011 | 19 Comments

Today is my 34th birthday.

Thirty four years of living tucked under my slightly snugger than last year belt.

Thirty four years of ups and downs and what the hells.

Thirty four years of doing my damndest to figure out what makes me tick alongside what motivates the rest of you crazy folk.

Thirty four years.

That sounds so old to me.  It sounds like I should be wise, and subdued.  It sounds like I should be calm and serene and floating through life with a Mother Teresa smile and the grace of Audrey Hepburn. It definitely does not feel like I should still be dancing in my seat to Maroon 5 at my desk at work, or wondering if my ass looks big in my new sweater dress.  Isn’t there an expiration date on vanity? Isn’t there some sort of statute of limitations for second guessing?

Apparently not.

Because at thirty-four I still feel barely competent at life.  I feel barely able to support myself, much less my child.  I feel barely different than I felt at twenty-five.  It’s funny… it’s like I’m growing older but not nearly wise enough.

But with all my silly second guessing and ridiculous ideas as to what people think about me and my life and my blog … I’m still uniquely happy to just. be. me.  Even if me isn’t all that exciting or entertaining.  Even if me doesn’t get the flashiest of accessories or the most attention from the opposite sex.  I’m still really glad I’m stuck with myself.

Here’s to the past thirty-four years of life that have brought me here to this place, where I’m sitting comfortably if not questioningly with my heeled feet propped up on the desk, my hair pulled back with a pencil, jamming out to the New Familiars and the Avett Brothers while typing out barely coherent emails.

These years have not been kind. 

These years have been too kind.

These years have been mine… all thirty-four of them. 

And I wouldn’t trade a single one of them.

Comments

19 Responses to “Happy birthday to ME!”

  1. Crayon Wrangler
    December 7th, 2011 @ 2:33 pm

    Happy Birthday!!! I’m really glad that you are the you that you are stuck with (that made my brain hurt!) I have missed catching up with you, but I’m slowly easing back in the shallow end…

  2. krlr
    December 7th, 2011 @ 2:39 pm

    Happy Birthday!

  3. Jennifer Williams
    December 7th, 2011 @ 3:00 pm

    Happy birthday! I hope you have a fantastic day.

  4. Julie
    December 7th, 2011 @ 3:08 pm

    Happy Birthday. I love how you shared this… totally understand how 34 feels!

  5. Crystal
    December 7th, 2011 @ 3:12 pm

    Happy Birthday! Have a great day!

  6. Megan
    December 7th, 2011 @ 3:32 pm

    Happy birthday! And happy belated date night 🙂 I’m so happy to read that things are looking up lately, you deserve it.

  7. Lyndsay
    December 7th, 2011 @ 4:05 pm

    Happy Birthday!

  8. Alecia
    December 7th, 2011 @ 4:05 pm

    Happy Birthday Law-Momma! Funny, at 42, I still feel like I’m 27. Trying to figure out this career thing and now I have kid! When did that happen? Secretly, I think we get better with age.

    Hope you had a great day.

  9. MaconMom
    December 7th, 2011 @ 4:07 pm

    Yep, it’s not much different when you’re about to turn 41 (still not sure how that happened!!).

    Happy Birthday to You!!!

  10. molly
    December 7th, 2011 @ 4:50 pm

    Happy birthday! Mine was yesterday and I’m one year behind ya :()

    Still don’t feel “grown up” yet!

  11. Amanda
    December 7th, 2011 @ 4:54 pm

    Happy Birthday!! I will be 34 in 18 short days and I too still don’t have that “grown up” feeling. Anyway, enjoy, celebrate and be happy on your day!

  12. Roxanne Piskel
    December 7th, 2011 @ 4:56 pm

    Happy birthday, lovely woman.

  13. aw
    December 7th, 2011 @ 6:35 pm

    happy birthday lady, hope you had a fantastic day!

  14. facie
    December 7th, 2011 @ 7:12 pm

    I turned 40 on Monday, so I hate you just a little. 😉 But you have the right attitude. Go and be fabulous you!

  15. Jackie Henson
    December 7th, 2011 @ 7:17 pm

    Happy Birthday 🙂 hope you have a wonderful day!

  16. Chunky Mama
    December 7th, 2011 @ 9:40 pm

    Happy Birthday! 🙂

  17. LesleyDavis922
    December 7th, 2011 @ 10:07 pm

    Happy Birthday! Tomorrow is my 34th birthday! No wonder I enjoy your blog so much! Enjoy what’s left of your day 🙂

  18. Joel
    December 8th, 2011 @ 12:43 am

    happy birthday LM .. I can guarantee you that your next year is sure to be better than the last.

  19. Nikki Hall
    December 8th, 2011 @ 10:22 am

    Happy Birthday to you!!! I hope your day was wonderful and the year to come filled with so much happiness and health and awesomeness. Sending you Birthday Hugs!!!

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