Posted on | May 3, 2012 | 37 Comments
One of the hardest things for me during and after my divorce was/is this: although some people lose weight when they are upset or depressed, I gain. I gain… a lot. And over the course of the last year of my marriage and first few months of my divorce, I did just that… I GAINED.
I gained so much weight that I matched the heaviest I’ve ever been in my life, except for pregnancy. I didn’t fit in my clothes, I was embarrassed by my body. I hated everything about what I saw in the mirror.
But lately, I’ve been really happy. I mean, REALLY happy. Probably the happiest I’ve been since law school… no, definitely the happiest I’ve been since law school. It’s like my marriage was a stone around my neck, weighing me down with all my expectations of myself and all my husband’s expectations of me. Now that I’ve pulled that off, I am me again… and me is not happy with my sagging midsection.
So little by little, over the past few weeks, I’ve been working in work outs wherever I can. I do sidebends that I saw in a Britney Spears spot on exercise (DON’T YOU JUDGE ME! SHE HAS GREAT ABS!) while I wait for the dogs to pee in the mornings. J and I take a long walk with the dogs in the afternoons. We do jumping jacks and semi-yoga on the patio after dinner and I *try* to do sit ups and push ups after he’s in bed.
It’s not much.
But it’s making all the difference.
I’m drinking more water, I’m eating better foods, I’m dropping the sorrow weight of my marriage and divorce and literally shedding the memory of the past five years every day.
Since leaving my husband last year, I have now lost twenty pounds.
And y’all, it feels GOOD. No, it feels GREAT. I feel like me again. I feel happy and content with my life, my body, and … ME! I even, for the first time in what seems like forever, came to work without any foundation on my face… on purpose.
But I’ve got another ten pounds I’d like to lose, so I’m asking the rest of you… how do you work in your work outs when there’s no gym and no one to watch your kid? What little things can I add in to push me towards my goal weight? Because I’m going to the beach in July and I’d really like to feel good about putting on a bathing suit!!!!!