This is Life

Posted on | July 24, 2013 | 7 Comments

My mind wanders a bit more these days than it used to.

Maybe it’s age or exhaustion or just the wear and tear of single parenting but I like to think it wanders because it is content to meander to and fro. I like to imagine that my mind is curiously happy, exploring the world outside my little head, exploring the thoughts and feelings and expressions of everyday life outside of MY everyday.

When it wanders, it dreams a little and lately those dreams have been big and bold and terrifying with their simplicity… a home, a simmering something on the stove, laughter from another room.  It seems that I have found a place where I am content to meander… content to paint in and around the lines of my life and it feels so sublimely right that I wonder why or how I ever lived through life before.

My days are simple… get up, go to work, come home… and the simple routine of it used to tear at my seams. I thought I’d go mad from the rote crazy of repeating all this tediousness. I thought there was more out there, more to be done, more to see… more to think and feel. And then one day not so long ago, I looked around and realized that this tediousness is just life.  It’s just my life.  And I was missing out on it by getting so wrapped up and angled in the fear of missing out. On something. On everything.

I am not missing anything.

I am tucked in and turned on and totally tuned in to the tiniest moments of my world: the brush of my son’s hand against my face, the smile on the face of my significantly significant other, the warm splash of the rain that just. keeps. falling.   Everything around me is green and sticky sweet with summer and I find myself the stickiest sweetness of all, basking in the glow of being appreciated, being accepted, being me.

My mind has been wandering a bit more these days…. and when it does, it returns to me refreshed, settling comfortably in the nooks and crannies of my skull and whispering that this is life. And it is perfect in all of it’s delirious imperfection.

Comments

7 Responses to “This is Life”

  1. Jenna Sindle
    July 24th, 2013 @ 9:46 am

    You’re happy! How wonderful is that.

  2. Law Momma
    July 24th, 2013 @ 9:54 am

    It’s pretty great; it’s really pretty freaking great. 🙂

  3. Carrie
    July 24th, 2013 @ 11:53 am

    Everything about this is beautiful!

  4. Law Momma
    July 24th, 2013 @ 1:58 pm

    Thanks! 🙂

  5. Jackie Henson
    July 25th, 2013 @ 12:08 am

    Love it 🙂

  6. NinjaPanza
    July 30th, 2013 @ 11:58 am

    Wonderful. Marvelous! I also love the routine days. Every trip to the grocery store, that episode of Diego, the text about what’s for dinner… all acceptance and appreciation. 🙂

  7. Cnorthridge
    August 12th, 2013 @ 11:50 pm

    Love LOVE this. Thank you

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