Emergency Contacts
Yesterday, I underwent a very minor procedure at an out-patient surgery center. It was just an epidural steroid injection, but because I was being sedated, I had to have someone with me to drive me to and from the procedure and sit with me the entire time. I had to have someone there in case [...]
Moving Forward
Last night, my ex-husband wanted to Skype with J. We called but J wasn’t really interested. Finally, ex told J he loved him and I told J to say the same. Instead, J said “No, you tell daddy you love him!” And in one quick moment… in one quick smile… I realized that I no [...]
The Tick of the Clock
Oh 2011. You brought me so many mixed blessings. You broke and mended and broke and mended and broke again until I felt certain that I would never survive the onslaught of mental, physical, and emotional pain heaped on my shoulders. You made me question everything I thought I knew about every thing and every [...]
Christmas Gifts
This is, obviously, my first Christmas as a single parent. Because it is my first Christmas, I’m still learning the ropes… learning how to make the right choices for myself and my son. And it’s hard. There’s no real guidebook for how to handle divorce appropriately when kids are involved… or if there is, I [...]
Yellow Sheets, Take Two
When my husband first moved out, I found a set of bright yellow sheets in the back of a closet that had never been used. I placed them on the bed and reminisced about what I thought when I bought those sheets and how so much had changed since then. I wept for the loss [...]
Happy (almost) Holidays!
Tomorrow is the first day of December, which means, among other things, that ABC Family’s 25 days of Christmas will begin. And that means 25 days worth of amazingly cheesy movies, which makes me happy. A lot of things make me happy in December… my birthday, Christmas, spending time with family and hopefully friends… and [...]
Never Underestimate the Power of a Promise
I had a rough weekend and got some pretty heart breaking news on Sunday. I thought long and hard about writing it all out here but ultimately, I decided to keep it private, to keep it close to me and turn it over and over like a coin, examining it from every side and wondering [...]
Living the Not-So-Single Life
I have spent time being jealous of my ex-husband’s current situation. Yes, I have J, and for that I am eternally thankful… but there have been moments when I’ve thought that just once I’d like the opportunity to go out and have fun without paying a babysitter or worrying about the phone ringing. Just once, [...]
The Single Post-Divorce
When I was single before, I was a whole me with the hope for an other. I wasn’t part of a person, or part of a heart. I was a complete and total person, with scars, yes, but still whole. I was still whole, even when it hurt. But the single after divorce is so [...]
Happy Thanksgiving
I thought for a moment about taking down last night’s post. I thought about erasing those thoughts and feelings from the world wide web and pretending they never happened. But then, that wouldn’t be very honest of me, and I think you all know that you can expect brutal honesty here. So I’m leaving it [...]


