Moments of Mortality

I ordered dinner from a popular chain restaurant in town, pushing open the door and stepping back in time to fifteen years ago.  The smells and sounds were the same: the din of conversation, the smells of frying potatoes and corn chips and chicken, the calls of “corner!” and “Need a runner!” and the constant [...]

The Fears I Swallow

This weekend, J looked up at me with tears in his eyes and said I was mean to him because I told him “no” about something silly.  And though it shouldn’t have bothered me in the slightest, it actually hurt to hear him say that.  It made me question if I was, in fact, being [...]

The Burden of Being Honest

When I first started blogging, I was hell bent on being honest. All the time.  About everything.  I talked about depression and anxiety, about family problems, about my fears for my son and about raising him in the world.  I talked … at length… about divorce, and heart break, and anger, and rebuilding; and I [...]

Fear is a Many-headed monster

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been a tentative sort of person. I keep three cars lengths between me and the car in front of me on the highway, I never ride in a car without my seat belt, and I always slow down for school zones.  I don’t participate in highly charged [...]

Radio Silence

Nothing’s ever easy, is it? After my rousingly upbeat post of Tuesday where I metaphorically sounded my barbaric yawp, I went on with my day.  I went home for lunch and when I came back, I was feeling a bit… woosy.  I stopped in the breakroom and talked to one of our paralegals about what [...]

Paving a Future

Things move fast around here: time, toddler feet, swirls of emotion.  And I am running, always running, to stay ahead… of something.  I have to be one step ahead of J, one step ahead of my boss, one step ahead of the collections agents. But I can’t seem to ever get even a half step [...]

Trials and Tribulations

Oh boy. April is shaping up to be one hell of a month. (What?! Lent is totally over. I can cuss if I want to!) First, this week I will be having my first Workers’ Comp hearing. It’s tomorrow morning so forgive me if I don’t have anything exciting to say until mid-day… and then [...]

True Confessions

I have a confession to make. One that terrifies me to say out loud but one that I’m going to share with you anyway. It’s been on my mind for a while now, pretty much since I was approximately 18 weeks pregnant with J. What is it? Glad you asked. I’m scared to have another [...]

Ten (more) Things about Law Momma

Happy April Fool’s Day, All! I thought momentarily about trying to pull a fun prank but I just don’t have the energy. And I had a good post all picked out but it needed a very important photo and, well, Blogger is having photo upload issues. I’ve really really enjoyed reading Lydia and Kate’s top [...]

It’s all fun and games ’til someone gets PPA…

Yesterday, a paralegal at my office brought in her brand spanking new baby… three weeks old. He was, in a word, adorable. As we chatted about all the fun “new mom” things, it got me thinking back to when J was born and all the drama and wonder that unfolded then. All the stuff people [...]