When it Rains…

I had a pretty rough weekend, I’m not gonna lie. Yes, it was my kid free weekend, but I’d initially had big plans for a weekend getaway and they sort of disintegrated and left me bummed and, well… pissed off about it. Yesterday I got up determined to bring the sunshine back in my life [...]

Boys Will Be Boys

One of the things I wanted to be sure to do with J while he was young was instill in him the importance of believing in something bigger than him.  As a result, once we got back to Macon, we started going to Wednesday night supper at a local church.  Two of his friends from [...]

Becoming a Mom

When J was about four months old, I took him with me to a UNC Alumni function at a sports bar.  At one point during the game, he spit his pacifier out and it bounced out of the stroller and down onto the dirty floor of the bar. I immediately picked it up, handed it [...]

Discontent Lives Here

I worked a long day yesterday. It was a hard day, full of disappointments and set backs, and I left the office in a really lousy mood.  I got to daycare only to be handed two bags of dirty clothes and a conversation with his teacher about what we needed to do to work on [...]

A Time To Fly

Friday usually means a day of anticipation for the weekend, a day of wrapping up things around the office and preparing for the week ahead.  Friday usually means… relief. But this Friday is a little different.  There is relief, but it is a bittersweet, birdsong of release rather than the mundane cycle of another work [...]

Frazzled.

I’m frazzled. Yesterday was such a tough day at the office that I was frustrated when I picked my child up from daycare.  He wandered over to me, clutching an ice-filled glove to his head, and explained that one of the other kids threw a train at his head.  He had a giant purple lump just [...]

Surprisingly Perfect in a Not-So-Perfect Way

This morning I looked around my house, looked at the unmade bed and the borderline sick baby.  I sighed over the sink that needs bleaching and the floor that needs vacuuming.  I rolled my eyes at the hair bunnies, courtesy of my ever-shedding dog, and the Pop Tart crumbs scattered atop the sofa cushions. It [...]

Shades of Gray

In the summer after my freshman year of college, I became obsessed with black and white photography.  I had a Canon EOS Rebel (pre-digital era, y’all) and I would buy the black and white film and prance around with my camera on a long camera strap around my neck. Black and white photography made me [...]

The Me My Son Sees

This morning, J woke up and snuggled close to me.  Before he opened his eyes, he popped out his pacifier and whispered: “I love you, Momma!” He knew it was me.  He knew, just because he woke up in the morning that I would be there and that I loved him. In J’s eyes, I [...]

Bless this Mess

Last night I came home from work to a dirty house.  There were dishes in the sink because the dishwasher hadn’t been unloaded.  The trashcan was at the street and needed to be brought back up.  There was dog hair strewn across the hardwood floors, collecting in small little hair bunnies along the baseboards. And [...]