Babies Don’t Keep

Dropping J off at school this morning was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.  Don’t get me wrong, I love his daycare and I know he is as safe there as he is anywhere, but oh the agony of hearing the door lock shut behind me.  The daycare has a glass front [...]

My So Called Toddler

Yesterday, we had a play date with a boy in J’s class and his parents.  They came over for dinner and the boys played for a while until their son apparently went to play with a toy that J didn’t want him to play with.  A small argument ensued and I did what all parents [...]

There Are Only So Many Words for “Piss” and “Crap”

I can not get the smell of pee out of my nose or the feeling that I have poop on me somewhere out of my head.  It’s like going back in time to when I first became a mom, only so much worse. There is pee on our sofa, pee on our rug, pee on [...]

Semi-Navigating The Doldrums

In high school, college and even in law school, we had a Spring Break.  It fell during the period between Christmas/New Year’s Eve and Easter … a welcome breather to break up the loooooong stretch of time between, well… breaks. Now that I’m out in “the real world” I crave a Spring Break. This long [...]

A Mother’s Prayer

This morning marked the first time in a long time that I cried on the way to work.  But this morning was different… I didn’t cry for the loss of my marriage or my husband, I cried for a mother’s loss.  I cried for a mother I do not even know. A mother who faced [...]

The Reluctant Not-so-Super Not-so-Heroic Me

Tomorrow, all of this becomes real. I know that I haven’t lived in the same house with my “husband” since the beginning of April and these things should have been beaten into my brain by now,  but tomorrow means that all of this wasn’t just a bad dream.  Tomorrow I will get up, shower, get [...]

The Worst Part

I don’t know what the worst of it really is. The worst part might just be knowing there’s no break on the horizon.  No matter how frustrated or exhausted or broken I get, there is never anyone else to bring in for the second quarter.  If J is sick or tired or hungry or angry, [...]

Did You Say CAKE?

All I have to say for myself is “ugh.” Times a million. Just when things start looking up? Life throws a curve ball. And curve balls make me hungry. This time, my curve ball is in the form of J being sick. Again.  Seriously? Is my kid EVER going to be well for a full [...]

There’s No Earthly Way of Knowing… What Direction We are Goooooing

The world looks different when you aren’t sleeping. Honest. I don’t suggest you try it, but if you’d like to know what I’m talking about, just stay awake for several days. Everything starts to take on a bit of a technicolor sheen… like you just stepped out of your house and into Oz. Green is [...]

Rambling On and On (and on…)

This weekend marked the end of a mini-era. On Saturday morning I packed up tiny shirts and pants, a bouncy seat, a jumperoo, a bazillion and three swaddle blankets, two tiny pair of shoes, a coat that looks like a teddy bear, and three play mats for infants. I packed them up in several big [...]