I am Stronger than I Thought.

“I am stronger than I thought.” That’s what the T-shirt said, when I pulled it out of the packing envelope; the one sent to me by my sweet friend in Tennessee.  The note enclosed said it was for completing my first half marathon and there were running shoes just below the quote.  I put it [...]

You Give A Blonde a Blender…

**FAIR WARNING: THIS MIGHT BE GROSS** So. If you don’t follow my Facebook page or my Twitter feed, you have maybe been wondering why I haven’t had anything to say in a week.  You may have thought “Oh, she must be so busy” or maybe “She’s happy and has nothing to say” or more than [...]

Everything.

My phone went off at 6:30 this morning, belting out the new “alarm tone” meant to encourage and entice me to face my days with a smile… “I Will Survive” by Gloria Gaynor.  I lay in bed for the length of a good snooze button, flipping through emails that arrived over night and quickly scanning [...]

The Keeper

When I first found out I was getting divorced, I spent many hours listening to Coldplay’s “Fix You” and “Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol.  I would just sit and stare at the wall, letting my parents care for J and just listen, choking on my tears.  I must have played both of those songs at [...]

Blessed.

Sometimes, someone does something so big that it overwhelms you with the sheer kindness of it all.  Sometimes, when you’re at your lowest, someone comes along and lifts you up so high that you’d swear your forehead kisses the clouds as they pass.  Sometimes someone does something so beautiful that you are faced with the [...]

Being A Single Parent Means Picking Your Battles… and your Roles

One of the hardest parts of becoming a single mother, for me, is the desire to be everything for my child. I desperately want him to have the childhood I had… the baking cookies, the team sports, the music lessons. I don’t want him to have moments when he thinks “Man, I could do that [...]

Kid-Free and Loathing It

Know what I hate about “kid-free” weekends? The fact that I inevitably end up right where I am 75% of my week anyway… at the office.  If I’m being honest, I kind of appreciate having J around to keep me from being here all the time because I know if I were just a single [...]

Moments of Mortality

I ordered dinner from a popular chain restaurant in town, pushing open the door and stepping back in time to fifteen years ago.  The smells and sounds were the same: the din of conversation, the smells of frying potatoes and corn chips and chicken, the calls of “corner!” and “Need a runner!” and the constant [...]

The Let Down

After every milestone, there’s a bit of a let down. When I got back from my honeymoon, I felt a little sad that I’d never have another wedding and honeymoon. (HA!) When my ex told me there would be no more children, I got a lot sad that J would be an only child.  When [...]

All My Mistakes

When I crawled out of bed, you were still sleeping, lashes flush across your cheeks and one arm thrown out across the bed as if you were claiming all of it as your own.  I was as silent as possible, slipping into the cold hallway, and gently closing the door behind me; you needed your [...]