"Late Night" with Law Momma

Posted on | June 16, 2010 | 5 Comments

It’s 10:30 on Tuesday night and I’m still up.

This may not sound like a feat of epic proportions, but I can assure you that it is. I haven’t stayed up this late since… I can’t remember when. Honestly, I don’t stay up late anymore because I cherish my sleep and have to score it when I can.

But a miracle happened last night.

J slept. He went to bed at 8pm, woke up briefly around 1 and got himself back to sleep then woke up at 4:30 to nurse… and WENT BACK TO SLEEP. I got so much sleep that I woke up at 7:30 in the morning and was completely certain it was Saturday. That’s how good I felt.

Granted the good feeling dissipated when I realized I had to haul ass out of bed and get ready for work because I was running late, but that’s a price I’m willing to pay for sleep, glorious sleep. I gotta tell you, I was starting to wonder if I was ever going to REALLY sleep again. I wondered if this would be my life for the next six or seven years… you know, until I could put ear plugs in and say “Sorry, honey, Mommy’s sleeping” and have him call for Daddy instead. (Sidenote: this makes me think of the time I pulled a college all-nighter with friends and there was a very silly moment with pink bunny pajamas and a picture of a drunk mother… but I digress.)

My point is… I slept. A lot. And now I’m still awake because I got so much sleep last night that I’m tempting fate with a little Momma time. And I’m sharing it with you because although I’d like to sit idly in a corner with my eyes closed, humming a tune and having someone give me a facial… it’s 10:30 at night and the only “salons” that are open also double as brothels. Not my scene, folks.

But I’m happy to share it here because honestly? On nights like this, when J is sleeping happily in his crib and Husband is sitting just in my line of sight on the patio, smoking his pipe… all seems infinitely right in my world. There is a sweet dog curled at my feet, I’m wearing my way-too-big maternity pajamas which, the dryer is spinning little tiny socks and onesies into dry, and the kitchen is actually clean. My house smells a bit like pipe tobacco and a bit like laundry… and a lot like home. And I’m feeling completely at peace in my own skin for the first time in a long time.

Motherhood takes a lot of energy so relaxation moments are few and far between. They remind me of how quiet my life was before J. I wonder what it was I did with my time when I wasn’t picking up wooden puzzle pieces and emptying diaper pails. I wonder what it was Husband and I talked about before we discussed the merits of having the world’s cutest son. What made it all worth while then? What did I get out of bed excited about? Work? Marriage? A sale at Ann Taylor Loft? I can’t, for the life of me, remember. All I know is that these days, when I wake up, I’m excited about seeing what J will learn. What noises he will make. What toys he will play with. He is my reason for getting out of bed every day and he’s the best reason for that I’ve ever had.

And in quiet moments like this one, when Husband is now inside and *gasp* folding laundry, I am so very very VERY thankful to be me, to be married to Husband, and to be J’s Mom.

Even when it’s 10:30 and completely past my bedtime.


5 Responses to “"Late Night" with Law Momma”

  1. The Empress
    June 16th, 2010 @ 12:25 pm

    Sleep? Oh, sleep is amazing. It changes everything.

  2. Nikki
    June 16th, 2010 @ 2:29 pm

    I'm seeing a trend of sleeping babies being posted…maybe mine will catch it! Good for you momma!

  3. ~*Jess*~
    June 16th, 2010 @ 2:40 pm

    Love it.

  4. Steph
    June 16th, 2010 @ 3:00 pm

    I'm so glad you got some sleep!! That's awesome!! I hope you got some last night too!!

  5. Bobbie
    June 18th, 2010 @ 4:42 am

    Man, I know what you mean. It is amazing how much of a difference a good night sleep is 🙂

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