I’m Hanging up my Cow Bell

Posted on | July 30, 2010 | 8 Comments

My days as a nursing mother are dwindling to a close.

This means two things… one good and one bad. The good? I don’t have to pump at work anymore. And really, pumping at work is the reason why I’m almost done with nursing. At my old firm, I could shut my door, lock it and pump away. At this firm? I have a window. On my door. Trust me when I say that NO ONE needs to see these babies sucked into a cup and, well, you know… milking. So my only recourse in Savannah was to go to the kitchen, shut the door and sit in front of it so that anyone who tried to open the door would be met with my head. It was not the most pleasant of pumping environments one because I was staring at a refrigerator and two because I kept getting a doorknob to the head.

So no more pumping at work is a good thing. I’m sort of happy to be done with that aspect of motherhood. Except for the bad part anyway. And the bad part is, now that I’m no longer nursing much, I have to stop eating so much or run the risk of being mistaken for Roseanne Barr’s uglier redheaded sister. I’m not looking forward to journeying back into the gym. Before I had J, I was running. I had started running just shy of a year before and really really loved it. I ran several 5Ks and was thinking about bumping up to a 10K when I found out I was pregnant. I even ran during my pregnancy, although not as much. I was obsessed with staying withing the pre-determined weight range and as a result, I watched calories, exercised, and avoided all desserts. I was RIGOROUS about my pregnancy diet.

When J was born, though, I quit all that. I was hungry ALL THE TIME. Nursing turned me into one of those starving children you see on television. I would have dug through the trashcan for the remnants of a burrito if I had to. It was ugly. Things tapered down a bit as J got older but I never did go back to the routine of exercise and watching my calories. Instead, I started a new routine… it was called work and drink. I worked, I mothered, I drank, I repeated. And because I was nursing, I lost weight. A lot of weight. I lost all of my pregnancy weight plus another 15 pounds. I was looking svelte. But ever since J started tapering off the nursing, the pounds have been creeping back on. I’m still under my pre-pregnancy weight, but it’s not by much. And last night I ate an entire pizza from California Pizza Kitchen. That goes on the list of things that are okay to do when nursing… NOT when you’re stopping.

I have got to reign myself in. I have to start thinking like a normal person again and get my butt to the gym. As a result, I’m going to participate in McFatty Monday for the very first time next week. I’m scared. I think I’ll start off with a bang… a picture. Of me. How I look now.

The idea of that makes me want a glass of wine.

I know you’re all very excited about seeing my butt in a tankini, but in the meantime, maybe you could spare some change to change a life? Just $5 could make all the difference to the Grady Family. Someone has to step up and start alerting people to Batten Disease. Someone could be you. For every $5 you contribute you get an entry towards winning some pretty amazing things. Here’s the list again for those of you who missed it the first time:

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8 Responses to “I’m Hanging up my Cow Bell”

  1. HarmSkills
    July 30th, 2010 @ 10:23 am

    I hear ya loud and clear. 16 months and still nursing… and my son it seems like will never stop, but the one thing I dont want to end is the built in extra calorie burn! Im gonna have a serious wake up call when I cant eat whatever I want (9mos of preg + 16 mos of nursing). ut oh!

  2. ~*Jess*~
    July 30th, 2010 @ 1:08 pm

    You live at the beach! You can start running with J in a jogger. It'll be wonderful.

    But yeah, bf? Best diet. Ever.

    You'll be great.

    And also: I'll donate tonight because my lovely office blocks paypal. But not FB, or Twitter. So I'm not complaining 🙂 Just saying.

  3. KLZ
    July 30th, 2010 @ 1:27 pm

    We're also tapering off. I've had to start eating this thing called "salad" and I am not pleased about it.

  4. D
    July 30th, 2010 @ 1:40 pm

    DD is now 13 months and I always said I'd stop at the one-year mark, but we're still nursing twice a day . . . partly because I feel like stopping will mark the official end of her babyhood, and partly because I'm afraid I'll become a fatass once I stop.

  5. Nikki
    July 30th, 2010 @ 1:49 pm

    I'm down to two times a day and I'm afraid how my diet will effect my weight once I stop completely. For some reason, I need sugar ALL THE TIME while breastfeeding.

  6. Delia
    July 30th, 2010 @ 6:07 pm

    I'm the SAME boat. I've been eating and eating and eating and in the past few weeks my supply dropped…and my weight went up. I've started the 30 Day Shred (aiming for 45 days) and will have to seriously cut back on the pizza and beer.
    Good luck!

  7. Mae
    July 31st, 2010 @ 2:54 pm

    We made it to about 8.5 months nursing and the pumping and working was definitely one of the things that helped determine when we stop. She was also less interested though, and it was not a difficult transition for us.

    I can happily report that my appetite decreased when I Stopped and the weight has not really started to creep back up yet. She's 19 months old now.

  8. Sara
    August 2nd, 2010 @ 2:27 pm

    I'm at the same place… pumping at work doesn't really make sense anymore. Good luck to ya!

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