A Very Merry Un-Birthday

Posted on | February 22, 2011 | 3 Comments

I have a headache and my son is 18 months old today.  These things can not be mutually exclusive.

I don’t exactly remember the moment that I realized I am the mother of a toddler. It may have been when I said “Give Dada a night-night kiss” and he toddled over to Husband for a hug and kiss.  It may have been when we went for one of our evening walks and he said “Hi!” to everyone we passed.  It may have been when he was taking a bath and repeatedly picked up handfuls of bubbles and squealed “BUBBLES” while rubbing them on his face and mine.

In any event, I am the mother of a toddler.  He runs with purpose.  He climbs “all by himself.” He loves animals and books and his “moom moom” which translates to Shrek… any of the four will do.  My little baby is a little baby no longer and I am quickly entering into a world of unfamiliarity.  A world where there are bumps and bruises with no explanation. A world where we have to think about things like (GASP) potty training.  A world, as yet, unexplored in our family.

It’s terrifying to think about how much he’s grown in just eighteen months.  I can’t believe that this time last year I was still carrying him everywhere.  I can’t believe that when I put my baby down on the ground, he reaches up to hold my hand when we walk. 

And so my head hurts.  My head hurts thinking about how much will change in the next six months.  My head hurts thinking about how much will be different when I sit down to think about my son next February; how much he will have changed, how much he will have grown.  They move so quickly, don’t they? One moment they are blindly groping for your finger and the next they are purposefully holding your hand.  One moment they are swaddled up in a blanket and the next they are dragging that blanket along behind them.

My head hurts.

My heart hurts.

My baby is growing so fast.


3 Responses to “A Very Merry Un-Birthday”

  1. Toni
    February 22nd, 2011 @ 9:34 pm

    I’m with you. My son is 20 months tomorrow. It’s scary how fast they change. I want him to stay a toddler. I know once we reach 2, we’re even closer to him being more independent. He amazes me every day.

  2. Mom on a Line
    February 22nd, 2011 @ 10:14 pm

    I completely agree. I have a 4.5 year old who is preparing for kindergarten and I’m planning my baby’s 3rd birthday party. Time flies much too quickly and I want to keep them small forever. I actually ask both of my kids frequently if they promise not to grow up and both always say “no”. But, they have both been known to say “Mommy, I will always be your baby.”

  3. Jennifer
    February 23rd, 2011 @ 3:21 am

    Oh you don’t even have to start thinking about potty training for at least another year. Please, put that completely out of your head.

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