I am Scared.
I’m scared. I don’t think I realized just how scared I actually am until we got back from Disney and I realized then and there that my heart is fully and completely wrapped up in someone else. Someone outside of my little two person family of J and I. Someone who could leave and break […]
Walt Disney World… Law Momma Style
I hardly know where or when or how to begin to talk about our recent trip to Walt Disney World. I could say that it was wonderful, but that wouldn’t quite be enough. I could say that we got drenched at Epcot but that isn’t everything. I could say that I fell head over heels […]
Family Vacations
Y’all… I am absolutely giddy with excitement. In just a few hours, I am snapping J into his car seat and climbing into Banks’ car to head to Disney World. And yes, I’m excited to go to Disney but it’s so much more than that. I think I’m mostly excited because… well… for the first […]
Surprises are for Adults…. NOT for Four Year Olds
When you’re dealing with four year olds, NOTHING is what it seems. Banks and I have secretly been planning to take J to Disney World since December. Money was scrimped and saved, hotels were booked and tickets were purchased. We whispered plans to each other out of ear shot and when J was around, we […]
One True Thing
Dear J: From the moment you were born, I loved you. I loved every last part of you… even when you cried. Even when you pooped and peed everywhere. Even when you and I both went seemingly days on end without the slightest hint of sleep. Because you were mine and you were heart-breakingly special […]
Mysterious Ways
Seventeen years ago, I lost a friend to drunk driving. I’ve posted about it before and I’m not going to go into great detail here except to say that when you lose someone tragically, that loss stays with you. It drapes around your neck like a shroud of sorrow and mostly, mostly, you can set […]
Men are From Mars
I’ve always heard the mantra that “Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus” and I’ve always sort of thought it was silly. I mean, we’re people, right? How hard can it be for people to communicate? Then I started dating. And I realized that yeah… it’s true. We are totally from different planets […]
Boarding the Plane
When you’re divorced, you tend to want to see the world in black and white: He hurt me, he was wrong. I was hurt, I was right. That fades over time but when you get into a serious relationship after divorce, those sharp dividing lines seem to reappear. When Banks and I fight, which is […]
Don’t Just Make Memories… Earn them
This morning on the way to school, J was buckled into the back seat singing. He sometimes makes up songs, and sometimes mutilates songs that he’s heard before. This morning, I’m not really sure where his tune came from, but his light voice traveled up to the front seat and I had to pause to […]